Bedding

It is the simple things in life that keep me so motivated for the future.  

Tonight's gleaming ray of hope and desire: 

Nothing is more thrilling than washing all your bedding.  I washed my mattress pad, sheets, and everything.  I also pressed them and made my bed into a thrown.  I have taken my shower and brushed my teeth and feel so clean.  It is such a gratifying feeling to lay on clean sheets with a fresh body and drift into a peaceful sleep early in the evening.  

My new motto:  Devote time to yourself thus ensuring you are getting the time and things you need to live.  

I'm highly inspired tonight...why???  (because I cleaned my sheets...thats why)

SADDNESS

It is amazing the high one can be on and then have it taken away so quickly

I found out today that the slate I was running on chose me as a token piece in the student body. Having me on the slate would ensure the "gay" population vote.  Of course I have other qualifications to bring to the table, but I couldn't morally and ethically allow myself to be a member of this group.  

I withdrew my candidacy today at 3 and although bummed about the entirety of the situation I still haven't processed all the information.  

I'm letting go of the best opportunity ever handed to me, but it was handed to me for the wrong reasons, and after conversing with some of my close BSU friends, I made this decision because it felt right.  I'm so frustrated that I would be taken advantage of, but hey...it's politics right...right?  

I know the slate meant well, but I can't grasp some of the decisions being made.  In the past twenty four hours I helped tweak a platform of 20 planks, and every time I had a comment, it was brushed off.  As a team, a campaign should work together for a common goal.  As I told our presidential candidate that I realized that my heart was already out of the experience.  The campaign was shady in places and could seriously jeopardize some peoples jobs.  I can't put my name on something like that.  I am as honest as I can be.  

I'm sorry for those of you who read the previous post.  There are still great things to be done, but just remember that just as something wonderful comes into your life, it can be taken away.  

BIG NEWS

Alright folks...you are all getting an unofficial look at what is going to be changing my life come Monday.  

Friday morning around 1:30 AM I received a secretive phone call saying that there was an amazing opportunity being offered to me.  I was sleeping during the ring, but heard my message tone go off and decided to wake up and listen.  I don't usually get calls at night so I thought something might be wrong.  After listening to the message, I returned the call to a young woman who called me to find that I was suggested as a prime candidate to run in the Student Government Association at BSU.  I was given a deadline of 5PM today to decide if I would accept the nomination that is still hidden under wraps till Monday morning at 9 AM.  In the next week I will be campaigning with a fantastic set of student leaders as "Cardinal Coalition." Competing against two other strong slates with amazing candidates that I consider friends, I have my work cut out for me.  To be 1 of 4 individuals who serve as the face of Ball State is a sincere honor, and being considered is amazing in itself.  Not only is this a time commitment with huge benefits, but also this position insures a solid networking connection with many important individuals, one being the president of the university.  

There is a lot to this process and as I begin the journey I will be posting some interesting press articles and media coverage.  This is quite possibly the biggest thing to ever happen in my life, and I want to share it with the few that read these post.  I will post links to our campaign site as well as offer stories from the front line.  I'm sincerely thrilled for the opportunity, nervous for the outcome, and scared of myself.  This will truly be a time for growth in my journey to become a better leader as well as prepare me for future endeavors. 

On another exciting note, I was informed today that I will be the "Special Events Chairman"  for Ball State's Homecoming Steering Committee 2009.  One of my favorite things at Ball State has now become even better as I am in charge of planning the entire event next fall.  I start next Sunday and couldn't be more thrilled. 

Lots of great things going on....hope I can find time to sleep.

P.S. I'm working right now and I am so BORED!! LOL

Have a great week everyone. 

Lets put it this way

Definitions are never finite. Happiness is what you make of it. Arguments are healthy when executed correctly. Fighting is never the answer.

It is time to take control and responsiblity for our actions.

Live the life that you have imagined. (Thanks bud)

I'm genuinely happy and don't know why. I have sad days, I have tired days, but I know one thing:

When the sun shines and the tender rays caress my face I feel more at peace with myself. It is a feeling I hope everyone finds. A calm serenity envelopes my soul and for a split second I feel nothing but the sheer satisfaction of living. Breathing in life....

I encourage the few who read my post to consider letting it go....whatever "it" may be. At the end of the day what matters most?

For me my family, my friends, and my future are what matter most. I'm letting go of the past, going to live in the present, and enjoy encourtering the road ahead.